FIERCE! FLY! & FABULOUS! Post # 2 (January 17, 2010)


Becoming FIERCE! FLY! & FABULOUS! is tough! I have had great moments this past week sprinkled with a few rough times.  Guess that’s part of the journey.  Everyday will not be joyful or easy.  Some days will be a struggle.  Some minutes will be a test of faith.  But the point is to see it through to the end.

My cousin, a wonderful Omega Man, posted a poem quote that I hadn’t thought of  in 11 years.  See It Through by Edgar A. Guest inspires me to push forward when I want to be lazy or knock back a bowl of sugar!  (I really haven’t gotten that desperate…seriously.)  As the early American poet writes:

When its vain to try and dodge it,

Do the best that you can do;

You may fail, but you may conquer.

See it through.

As I write this post, I’m leaning heavily on those words.  I leaped off my 21-day fast wagon last Tuesday night.  Getting back on feels as if I’m trying to sprint with concrete Nikes…almost impossible!  Notice I said ALMOST.  Though I’ve slacked, I’m still making wiser food choices and not bingeing on sweets.  My water intake has increased dramatically and I’ve been soda-free for over 9 days.  AMAZING!!! I was drinking a 20oz Dr. Pepper at lunch everyday and a 16oz can of soda with dinner.  I had to be on the verge of desert thirst to drink water.  It’s all about the small steps and keeping at them.  In my healthy eating habits quest I found a low carb/good carb guide a high school friend suggested last year.  I’m going to follow this carb-reintroduction diet to find balance between loving sugary sweets and potatoes and finding love in good carb dishes.

I’ve also struggled with the prep work that goes in to becoming a Triple “F” Threat.  I hate pulling clothes the night before for work and hate making lunch even more.  But any change in habit needs planning and preparation for it to stick.  I was wishy-washy about fasting from the jump. Not because I couldn’t do it.  I successfully completed the 21-day fast in October 2008.  Lost ten pounds, thank you very much!  But my heart isn’t in it the same way this year.  That’s okay.  I’m going to focus on cleaning up my eating acting which will be a fast in some way.  The next couple of months are about resetting how and what I eat.  That’s where I need to focus my actions.  Eating lunch out of a vending machine is not good!  I’ll never reach my goal weight (180lbs) if I don’t plan better meals and make wiser food decisions when out.  When I do give in to those sweet urges and carb temptations I can lean on these words, “You may fail, but you may conquer…”

Now , this week has brought some Triple “F” Threat opportunities my way! For starters, I thoroughly enjoyed celebrating my sorority’s 97th Anniversary.  I met a group of sorors for brunch last Sunday.  I was able to celebrate our Founders’ Day with Alpha chapter and area sorors.  And I partied with my Loudoun County Alumnae sorors Friday night.  Each event reminded me how strong Delta’s bond is and how many sisters I really have.  It was great to connect with familiar faces and new ones.  This week pushed me even more to not be just financially active but more involved in Delta.  Working on those Triple “F” goals!!!!

Speaking of goals, I kicked myself out of my introvert comfort zone.  While at dinner with my soror, I introduced myself to two women next dining next to us.  I over heard them talking about federal government positions t various agency.  One woman is the CEO of a government consulting firm.  The other is in the Senior Executive Service (SES) at a domestic agency.  I saw a great professional opportunity served up on a plate garnished with luscious fruits and veggies just for me! And I dug right in! I introduced myself as they were leaving, told them about my background, and that I would love to talk more about federal government career opps.  Got both of their cards! (Go Jo!!!) They graciously and generously offered their time.  Remember, you have not because you ask not!

Saving the best for last…I performed at an open mic Wednesday night!  (Whew!  I’ve been in the streets all week!)  Its been at least 6 years since I done this but it was my time.  Thanks to Goldie Deane for inviting me to performing at the K.I. Service, Inc. open mic fundraiser.  After reading the first Triple “F” post she challenged me to share my artistic work.  I shook off the stage fright and did a pretty good job.  The experience has me typing up my poems and doing some much-needed rewriting.  More importantly, I finally told the world (a small segment of it) that I’m a poet.  Don’t get that confused with “I write poetry.” I’m a poet.  I’m a writer. I’m an artist.  Over the last 9 years I have hidden that fact.  No matter how much I try to bury it, it always comes through.  I’m working on my craft and have many lessons to learn as a poet/writer.  But I cannot deny anymore…I’M A WRITER!!!!!!

What did I perform? Check out When I Stare at You (2006) below-

When I stare at you

I see beauty waiting to be loved

I intensely watch your mouth

As passionate thoughts

Slip over your tongue and pass your lips

Soft lips speaking kindness to my heart

 

When I stare at you

I see a lifetime lived in a moment

Experiences shaped your beliefs

Molded your view of an extreme world

How you find a way to love it

How you find a way to better it for our children

 

When I stare at you

I see an unexplainable dichotomy

Strength too powerful to deny

Yet so humble, so sincere

How many will rest upon your strength?

The masses you will cradle in your arms

 

When I stare at you

I see the man I was meant to love

Compilation of idiosyncrasies intricately arranged

I study your enthusiasm, curiosity, and hunger

I memorize your humor and thoughts

Capture the vulnerability you openly share

 

When I stare at you

I think of our forever

Lazy Sundays spent on the couch

Watching sunbeams blanket your face

Listening to you talk to our son

Proudly witnessing him become the man you are

 

When I stare at you

I see the image create by words I’ve written

Countless phrases of fantasy

Now, I see the dream

A magical myth that is reality

Prove when I stare at you

 ***Please Do No Reprint Without Author’s Permission***

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One response to “FIERCE! FLY! & FABULOUS! Post # 2 (January 17, 2010)

  1. “Triple F Threat” I like that. This motivated me to push on with my own journey to step up my swagger. Good luck with your journey!

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